Hailey's POV:
I woke up next morning in a good mood. I went to the washroom to
freshen up. After showering, I changed into the red knee-length dress.
I stare at myself in the mirror few minutes after blow-drying my hair
and thought that I look pretty nice in this dress. Then I decided to
go downstairs to make breakfast.
When I reached the last stair my eyes landed on Chase sleeping on the
couch in lounge. The first thought that came to my mind was that I
forgot we have one bedroom here in cabin which Noah and I took.
Oh Gosh! I didn't even ask him if he wanted to sleep on the bed.
But it would be so awkward if we sleep on the same bed after divorce.
Like you remember the first time you shared the bed with him. My mind taunted.
My face heat up at the reminder of our past that's still a mystery for me.
I walked closer to where Chase was sleeping. His right hand was under
his head while the left one was hanging out from the couch due to
small space. I kneeled down and pick up his hand in mine then placed
it on his chest.
My hand brushed with his chest and I felt the rhythmic breathing of
his heart. My eyes went to his peacefully sleeping face and before I
could stop myself I placed my hand on his jaw. The stubble on his jaw
looks great on him with the hint of maturity.
I realized how long it has been that I had a chance to stare at him
like this. In past I used to stare at him when he wasn't looking at me
because I would imagine a future with him an actual happily ever after
with him.
My mind was again making me imagine how we could still live like a
family and I could give my son his dad. I know Noah is still young to
understand why his dad never came to meet him and if some day he will
come to know that it was because of me, he would hate me.
I don't want my son to hate me. He is my only family and I can't lose
him to Chase.
I should give Chase a chance to mend our broken relationship because
of my son's happiness and future. But I'm not ready to fall in
one-sided love again and feel how worthless and unwanted I am in his
life.
Chase hated me and now because of our son he might be tolerating my
presence but it doesn't mean he wants Noah and I back in his life.
And if I put this idea in his mind him he will might do this for
Noah's happiness because I can see he loves his son. But he will look
at me as a burden, a baggage and unnecessary responsibility in his
life and I don't want that in my life.
I don't won't go through the same depression again because of his
ignorance and rejection. I wouldn't survive this time he will break my
heart again.
It's better if we continue to live the way we are living our life for
last three years.
Noah will understand that why his father isn't in the picture.
I removed my hand from his jaw and got up ready to leave when I was
pulled back with the force and fell down on something hard.
When I finally realized what has happened my eyes widened. I was
laying on Chase chest while my legs were dangling from the couch.
After completely accessing our position my eyes made their way from
his chest to his face and I found him wide awake, smiling while he
I glared at him and tried to get up when he placed his arm on my waist
and pulled me closer. My breathing was uneven and I didn't it was
because of the fall or the closeness with Chase.
"Good morning". Chase said, staring at me.
"Morning". I said feeling uncomfortable because of our position.
"How did you sleep last night?". He asked me tucking the strand of my
hair behind my ear.
His hand caressed my cheek, creating a weird tingly feeling on my skin.
I couldn't believe at my traitorous body for having this reaction
because of his simple touch.
"I slept fine". I said and tugged my hand free.
Instead of leaving my hand and freeing me, he made the sudden move and
flipped us. Now he was on top of me while I was laying underneath him.
I was shocked at this complete turn of events and little flustered
that now I can feel his body fully pressed on mine.
His sterling grey eyes were taking me in like it's some kind of dream
and he would wake up any minute.
For few minutes I found myself lost in his eyes. Then his face leaned
closer to mine while our eyes stayed connected he planted his lips on
mine making me close my eyes.
I didn't know why it felt so good to know that he was kissing me.
He was waiting for me to push him away or do anything to give him
indication that I don't want this.
But apparently my mind was to numb to react properly because of the
sensation of his lips on mine.
Do I want this?
You always wanted him to love you. My mind replied.
His lips moved on mine and my stupid brain decided to completely stop working.
I didn't know when and how I started kissing him back.
My hands made their journey to his neck then I found my fingers in the
mess of his hair.
He bit my lower lip and I gasped giving him the advantage to penetrate
my mouth. His tongue leisure strokes made me feel like I was in
heaven.
I tried to win the brutal war from him but lost my breath and energy.
He was winning the damn game with his playful nips until I heard the
light footsteps making its way down.
Chase distracted me by running his knuckles from my stomach to my breast.
I tugged his hair to distract him but he thought I wanted him to
deepen the kiss.
The kiss was turning into a passionate one and I didn't want to let go him.
"Mommy, mommy where are you?". Noah yelled from the stairs in his cute voice.
After hearing Noah's call I got my senses back which earlier lost to
the devil ex-husband of mine.
I pushed away Chase on time Noah entered in the lounge.
Sadly, the push was quite unexpected for Chase and he fell down on the
floor on his back.
Noah's eyes landed on his dad hissing in pain and he came running.
"Dad... Are you hurt?". Noah asked to Chase looking concerned while I
was busy in calming my breath.
"I'm good, son". Chase said rolling on the floor on his back in pain.
"Mommy help dad". Noah pleaded while looking at me.
At Noah's demand I got up from the couch and gave hand to Chase,
helping him to get back on the couch.
When Chase was finally sitting on the couch I breathed a sigh.
"Are you alright?". I asked Chase.
He nodded his head making a painful face.
I rolled my eyes at his drama.
Is he trying to gain sympathy by acting like he is in pain?
"Chase, do you know how strong Noah is. One time he fell down from the
stairs and scraped his knees but he didn't shed a single tear. He told
me that boys are strong and they don't cry so you should stop crying
too". I said with the smirk.
Chase eyes widened and he straightened up.
"I'm fine and there is no pain. It was just a small fall". Chase said
smiling at Noah.
Noah and I bursted into giggles at Chase statement.
Suddenly, Chase started to look at me Noah with a full smile on his
face and I stopped giggling.
It feels strange when he looks at me so intensely.
Noah broke the awkward atmosphere by complimenting me.
"Mommy you're looking so pwetty". Noah said staring at me with
happiness in his grey eyes.
"Thank you love". I said picking him up in my arms and kissing his cheek.
He giggled and planted a kiss on my cheek.
"Dad, tell Mommy how pwetty she is looking". Noah said making my eyes widened.
He always does this. Noah would compliment me then make mom and dad
compliment me. Even if we were out on shopping he would ask any
stranger how do I look.
Noah's question caught Chase off guard.
Chase glanced at me from my hair to my red toe nails.
"Your mom is looking gorgeous. She's the epitome of beauty". Chase
said staring in my eyes.
I put Noah down on the floor.
"Noah baby, let's change you into your Christmas outfit". I said.
Noah's face lit up and he started running back to upstairs to our room.
Chase caught my hand, stopping me from moving and stood up from the couch.
"Hailey, I wasn't lying when I said how beautiful you look". Chase
whispered in my ear.
I did let myself slip once again to his charm but this time I am not a
fool to let myself get used by him just for him to leave me again and
break my heart.
"Chase, we are here for Noah. You should remember this and I should
too". I said in a curt voice.
Chase face fell and let go my hand.
"I'm sorry". He said.
"Me too". I said making my way upstairs.
I helped Noah in brushing his teeth then I changed him into his
favorite Santa's outfit which he loves wearing on every Christmas. He
always looks cute in the little red pants and shirt with the Santa's
cap on his head.
After getting ready Noah went downstairs leaving me to think about Chase.
The kiss that happened earlier between Chase and I wasn't right. We
have been divorced for almost three years.
I loved him and I was attracted him but after three years I wasn't
expecting my heart to have same feelings for him.
Is he attracted to me now that I'm not a teenage girl anymore?
If he thinks that it's this easy to win me back then he is very wrong.
Yes, I want to give my son a complete family but it doesn't mean that
I will let Chase Edward play with my heart again.
With the determination of ignoring him I went downstairs and found
Chase making pancakes.
I was little shock at seeing him in the kitchen making breakfast. When
we were married I never saw him cooking anything for himself.
He has changed a lot and his every move was proving it yet he is the
same man who made me fall for him then broke my heart.
I shook my head to get rid of the memories.
"Can you help me in arranging the table". Chase asked me.
I nodded my head and put the plates on the table while Noah was
sitting on the kitchen counter telling Chase how every Sunday he and I
go out for breakfast and eat chocolate chip pancakes.
I loved the smile on both of their faces and my heart softened for Chase.
He was making an effort to make our son happy and I should help him
instead of bearing grudges.
After having breakfast Noah dragged us towards the Christmas tree to
open his gifts. There were so many gift boxes which I had no idea
where did they come from because I put only two boxes for Noah under
the tree and I didn't bring any gift for Chase.
"Mommy look Santa came last night and placed so many gifts". Noah said
excitedly and leaned down to pick one box.
"Oh, baby I think it's not from Santa. They are from your dad". I said
making him look at Chase with his grey eyes.
Noah was literally in love with Chase at that moment. I knew what his
little mind used to think when I would tell him that his dad is busy
and couldn't come home at Christmas. So now that Chase has showered
Noah with gifts, I'm sure he has successfully won his heart.
"Thank you. I love you! I love you". Noah said while hugging Chase
legs and looking up at him with love in his eyes.
Chase kneeled down and hugged Noah tightly. He kissed his head then
pulled away and I noticed tears in Chase eyes but he blinked them
back.
"I love you too, son. I'm sorry for taking so long in coming back to
you". Chase said Noah making him smile.
Noah asked me to help him open his gifts and as a mom I went to gladly
help him. When he opened the first gift he found an electronic tablet
inside from a very well-known company around the world. Noah knew what
tablet is and how it works so he got really excited seeing that gift
and hugged Chase.
Chase was smiling ear to ear at looking Noah's excitement.
Noah's second gift was an autographed t-shirt from his favorite
footballer. The third gift was three tickets of Disney land and that
made him jump in happiness and it got Chase another kiss on his cheek.
The forth gift was remote control mini helicopter and that was from
me. Lastly I was the one receiving kiss and hug from him.
I was ready to faint if I will see another expensive gift from Chase.
Two boxes were still laying under the tree unopened and I wonder
what's inside them.
Noah picked the one box up in his hands and looked at it.
"Mommy, this is for you. It has your name on the cawrd". Noah said
giving me the box.
I gave him the quizzical look but took the box from his hands. I read
the card attached on the box and found my name written on it.
"It's for you". Chase said, staring at me.
"But I didn't bring anything for you". I said feeling ashamed for
being so unthoughtful.
"Hailey you don't have to give me any gift when you have already given
me Noah. And believe me allowing me to spend this Christmas is the
best gift for me". Chase said smiling.
I wanted to cry and hug him at the honesty behind his words. I
realized how cruel I was to ask him to never come back and show me his
face. He missed three years of his son life because of my demand.
How can I do this with him?
When did I become so selfish and punished him by asking to him not
come back until I ask him to come back.
This man thinks Noah is the best gift in the world that I have given
him then why did he divorce me and sent me back to my parents. This
Chase does look like the Chase I fell in love but his words were
showing how much he has changed and I loved this change.
"If you still want to give me something then you can always give me
the kiss as thank you". Chase said taking the step closer to me.
His cologne that I remember perfectly filled my senses.
"I can give you the same push I gave you in the morning because it was
pretty fun". I said innocently.
"I didn't know you were so kinky". Chase said with silly smirk on his
stupid handsome face.
"Come on open this gift, Hailey". Chase said moving away and creating
the small space between us.
I opened the box and found a velvet clothe inside it. After removing
the piece of clothe aside I saw a small red jewelry box. I took it out
and opened it.
A loud gasp escaped from my mouth when I looked at the beautiful
Sapphire necklace set in front of my eyes.
I was literally speechless at the beautiful combination of Sapphires
and diamonds glistening in front of my eyes.
"Do you like it?". Chase asked me, looking nervous.
"I... I'm speechless it's beautiful. But it looks really expensive and
I can't take it". I said.
The smile vanished from his face.
"When I saw this necklace in the shop I imagined you wearing this so
why can't you take it. I would really like it if you put it on for me
and accept it". Chase said making the puppy dog eyes.
Now I know where did Noah get this habit of making puppy dog face,
obviously from his dad.
I wasn't wearing any earrings so put them on wasn't a hard task. When
I was trying to lock the necklace around my neck he took it from me
then set my hair on one shoulder.
His fingers brushed on my neck and I felt the shiver which I was sure
didn't go unnoticed by him. He placed the necklace on my neck and
locked it around my neck.
"Now it's looking more beautiful because you are wearing it, Hailey".
Chase whispered in my ear.
I closed my eyes to stop myself from bawling my eyes out. He was
confusing me by saying things that I always wanted to hear from his
lips.
Why is he doing this to my poor heart?
It took me years to get back to my normal life and stop myself from
loving him, crying over the times he had spent with me when I was
pregnant with Noah. The plans we made for our son and the future I
imagined with him, everything was destroyed that day when he handed me
divorce papers.
My mind was a mess and filled with confusion.
"Hailey, are you alright?". Chase asked in concern.
I opened my eyes and stared at him in the eyes. He cupped my face and
put his head on mine.
"Hailey, please for today, for our son happiness don't recall past". Chase said.
In that moment I forgot that he was the same person who snatched my
happiness and broke my heart. My stupid heart was once again falling
for him and just like last time, I had no control over my heart.
That day I didn't ask him why he divorced me and made me leave with
our one week old son when we had decided to work on our relationship
for our son.
But I plan to ask him every damn question that has been swirling
around my mind for past three years.
I wonder what happened to the Chase who used to hate me a look at me
like I was the one who destroyed everything and entered in his life
unwelcomed.
It was like he is completely a new person, a different man who is not
afraid to show his emotions to me. His tender voice, his honest smile
and the tears in his eyes were telling me how happy he is at the
moment to be here with us but every time he looks at me I noticed
shame, sadness and guilt in his eyes.
And all those emotions were still their on his face. To show him how
much I appreciate his effort I hugged him.
My hands were around his neck while his arms were tightly wrapped
around my waist. He hugged me with same passion.
He snuggled his head in my neck and felt the tears on my neck. I
tightened my grip around and ran one hand on the nape of his neck to
provide him some comfort.
"I'm sorry for everything". He keeps repeating it.
"Chase it's fine". I mumbled.
He murmured something which I didn't hear but I felt soft kisses on
the hollow part of my neck. I closed my eyes and bit my lips to stop
myself from gasping or making any noise.
I didn't know how long we held each other in a hug. When we pulled
away I averted my eyes from him feeling my face heat up at what just
happened between us.
Chase was quite too for few minutes.
"Uh....there's another gift for you". Chase said, picking up the box
from the floor.
I raised my eyebrows at him and he smiled sheepishly at me. I took the
box from him and opened it then peeked inside. There were five books
from my favorite authors. I pulled them out and yelled in excitement.
I couldn't believe my eyes when I realized they were all new books
that I was planning to buy.
How does he know what books I like and planning to buy?
Then my eyes landed on the signature of the author.
"Oh my God! Chase they.....they're signed and all are from my favorite
authors. Am I dreaming?". I asked him.
"No, Hailey you're not". Chase said laughing at my excitement.
Without thinking much I placed a kiss on his cheek.
"Thank you so much!". I said.
"Mommy, I need your help". Noah said.
We glanced at Noah who was sitting on the couch surrounded with his
gifts and trying to make his helicopter work.
We laughed and went to help him. After reading the instructions five
times and putting the wrong batteries in controller and helicopter we
were finally able to make it work.
Chase and Noah went out to play with snow and I joined them after the
preparing lunch.
After snow fighting and making snow man we had lunch.
Then Noah asked me to bake chocolate cupcakes and what kind of mom I
would be if I refuse his small wish.
Thanks to Chase the cabin was stocked with all the necessary elements
required to prepare chocolate cupcakes.
After the chocolate cake was done Noah helped me in decorating them
and while watching a Christmas movie we enjoyed the cupcakes.
"It is the best Christmas of my life". Noah said making Chase and I smile.
"I think it is the best Christmas of my life too". Chase whispered in my ear.
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