feared that i had fallen into wayward ways judging by all the stories
she heard about city girls. i told her about Ben and she said he
should come to the village and pay my lobola. am sure my uncles will
succeed in scaring off his family with the huge and ridiculous amount
that they were going to put on my head when that time arrive.i felt
that my life was back there with Ben and even if i had returned to the
village, what more was left for me? I knew with Ben we had dreams and
promises that were yet to reach maturity. i prayed for his success in
life everyday because i knew i was included in his life
#sharedblessings.
whoever said behind a successful man, there is a woman sure knew how
to choose sweet and befitting words. i always thought men are the
heads sure and true enough but women are the necks that drive the
heads
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i wasn't able o communicate with Ben for the whole time i was in the
village because of network problems. come on, in this time and age
should we still break our heads for such things? i returned home and
found a message on my phone saying he had gone to Blantyre for a job
interview. i prayed to God to look upon him with His eyes of favor.
the world is becoming a fast competition ground and you need to have
God beside you no matter what but not as a spare wheel only in needy
when you only have a flat tire.
I went to see my besties and catch up for the lost time. we planned
several outings to dance our sorrows away. Norah had a stable
boyfriend of three years while Emmah was always on and off with her
boyfriend who i heard so much of yet never got to meet for all the
time i had known her. if you ask me, i would say they were friends
with benefits.
Ben came back and i was so happy to see him. there was a remarkable
change about the way he looked. he told me that he had been offered a
job as a site engineer and will be working in Lilongwe. wow i was weak
at my knees, not believing what God had finally made for us because
after so many years he was finally going to walk in the line of his
career. i couldn't point out how this divine grace had befallen us
because i couldn't say we had righteous and perfect lives.
Just as he promised me, after receiving his first salary, he gave me
money to pay for my school fees at a local secondary school to attend
weekend classes. i was over the moon. i started form 1 and my results
were extraordinary i guess it was because i had it in me to get
educated. Weekend classes meant our couple-time was limited but any
spare time that Ben could find, he dedicated it to me. some times he
spent nights at my house and when it was time to go in the morning,
its when i realized how much more i wanted him in my life.
I passed my Form two Junior Certificate of Examination with flying
colours and was determined to pass my Form Four with good results as
well so that i could go to the University and study Journalism. i
didn't get discouraged by endless stories of low paid reporters but i
got fascinated by stories how criminals and citizens who don't abide
by the law get exposed.
i had just wrote my form four examinations and was waiting for results
with a baited breath. i knew my university dream was just few weeks
away and i couldn't wait. i wrote to my mum constantly keeping her
afloat what was happening in my life and she couldn't hide her
admiration for me because she had been married off to my father at the
age of Fifteen because her parents couldn't afford to feed both her
and her eight siblings. i don't understand how people keep bringing
many children in this world when they cannot afford to take very good
care of them. her dreams of becoming a nurse died a painful and
instant death.
One day after work i received an SMS from Ben…
'we need to talk' it was as simple as that. normally he didn't like
sending me messages unless it was something he found it hard to tell
me in person.
My heart raced…
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